To Live In A Valley For A While

i have been feeling like my true nature has been lost, i'm always on the go, and i remember being younger and spending days in the sun with nothing to do; lately i feel overstimulated and overwhelmed; always plugged into technology in countless ways and using it to access information, work, images, music while my memory seems to be receding; sometimes i feel like i remember nothing and my memory has been stored electronically

and this leaves me dazed

i have faith that i can recall the feeling of freedom and just being that is within me, and it seems like that is what i am working so hard to achieve - a respite, the ability to take time away from the bustle; but at the moment the overlaying feeling of fatigue is strong in my life, and it is my journey to learn how to find the well spring within me

i suspect that the answer is in the wrapping up of projects that have been underway for years now, like our renovation and my schooling ~ oh yes, i am ready for it to be done, and for a long break, and then it will begin again, because i have lots more schooling i want to do, and lots more homebuilding ~ i see the top of the mountain, and am ready to reside in the fertile green valley on the other side for a time