Disheartening & Empowering

For the past month and a half I have been suffering through a dislocating knee. I left my library job, and not two days after dislocated it, and chipped my tooth. I have gathered that both issues being about the bones meant my foundation (hence: job where I rely on an outside organization to sustain me) was challenged. The dislocation happened a few more times. Small micro-adjustments while under excruciating pain allowed the knee cap to slide back into place. The swelling caused stiffness, limping and my muscles seized up.

I have gone for physio now and it has not dislocated since I saw the sports medicine doctor. The physiotherapist did an IT band release that left my thigh deeply bruised. But muscular etc releases along with acupuncture helped. I am returning for more sessions. So my month and half away from library work has been tainted by severe restriction in movement. But now I feel myself slowly regaining alignment and strength.

I now have my own room at home, an office for my natural health practice and a quiet writing and inner work work. And many other things are happening, too many to share, that are good and affirming. Honestly, I feel like a new part of me has emerged, especially after I just went through a 48 hour fever by myself as well. I feel it like a very strong inner warrior some outback wilderness survival woman connected to guides and earth self. It has been one of my hardest transitions. Helped by family and friends. Not finished yet, but clear.

I feel an inner motivation emerging that moves me no matter what happens in life. I feel my role in this world shifting and a matrix of roles spiraling that takes me beyond what I have known before. All related to subconscious, plant world, imagination, story, life force, earth, dream, body, offering, intuition, facilitating, balance, energy, axial repositioning, attunement.